Din even know then...

I don wanna forget a single moment of my pregnancy... So lemme start by putting down my own experiences of this wonderful journey to womanhood....
It all started with faint bouts of dizziness... A feeling like I was drunk all the time... I used to often feel like I was sinking...down...down...down, feel giddy, like throwing up... But since I was used to blackouts and giddiness, I din quite take these to mean anything in the beginning...
I am a coffee freak... I am known in all my social circles to be one who would never refuse a cuppa anytime of the day...n lo behold!! All of a sudden, that was the one thing I detested the most!! When mom used to bring me my morning cup of coffee, I wanted to do anything but drink that!!
Not jus dat... I am also a typical junk food freak...I love to indulge in my molaga bajjis n chats et all...But at that time, I jus din wanna have anything spicy...nothing fried, nothing oily...It was almost as if my system had suddenly decided it wanted only absolutely healthy food intake...no messing around!! :)
I have always been an "up n about" bubbly sorta girl...so I was really not used to feeling as tired as I felt at that time... It was like I always had a constant urge to rest myself, to lie down for a bit!! God knows how many times, I must've heard people say... "Wat is with her?? Is she alright?! Never seen her feeling so dull!!"
N all dis was even before we discovered I was pregnant!! The three month ordeal had not even begun!! :)

Poem for Shaurya Baby

An eye on the left
and an eye on the right
don't play around with me
I have you in my sight
A ear on the left
and a ear on the right
don't play around with me
I have you in my sight
I want to laugh
And I want to smile
And I want to swim
across the river Nile
I want to play
around in the water
And on the turtle's back
I want to trotter
I wanna say something
Mommy can you hear
Daddy's SCARING me
please hold me near !!

N thats how it started...

Nope...it was not the ideal planned pregnancy, but I dont think I've enjoyed any part of my life as much I enjoyed those nine months....

Truthfully, though I had been a baby freak since the age of 17, I was not very sure I was really ready for it!! So on the evening that the Doctor at St. Phelomina's hospital tol me..."OK, Rupa...You're pregnant"...I wasn't exactly sure how to react...I wasn't sure how he was going to react...I wasn't sure whether this was the right thing, considering our future plans...I wasn't sure of...actually anything!! and so I came out holding my hands on my mouth...why??probably because I din exaclty know what to say!! though somehow, my mouth managed to communicate... I'm pregnant... As expected, he initially did not even believe it was true...

Its amazing, the influence movies n the tele have on our lives and expectations... n me being an ordinary mortal who watches soaps that run to eternity n the thousand odd romantic flicks, had always thought...OK, I'm gonna be elated when the doctor gives me "the news"...and when I tell him, he's gonna carry me n jump with joy!!! O no, reality is far from this... What happened instead is that we were both secretly overjoyed, shocked, excited, uncertain...all at the same time...and what we decided to do instead, was to discuss the "issue"over a cup of coffee...

No feeling shy with joy, no giving him "the news"symbolically by giving him a mini cup of coffee or making him touch my tummy... no jumping with joy...no telling the whole world immediately, nope..not at all...a restrained sort of happiness, we were both scared to express, an uncertainty about the future, a secret desire that this be the start of a journey of a lifetime...n a detailed discussion about the future, about finances, about the pros n cons, where we were both assuring and reassuring each other that we understood, yes we understtod...Eh...What exactly did we understand...neither of us can say now!!!

Yes, dat was the beginning of this wonderful journey called pregnancy...n trust me...dat is how real people react!!!

Our Baby

He's called Shaurya, meaning glory :)

Check out his pics on http://picasaweb.google.co.in/rupsndeepak/OurBundleOfJoy